What Type of Head Owner Are You?
Are you Hoarding Emotions? One negative thought leads to another, as you worry, obsess or stress.
Maybe you Recycle old pain. Do you keep reusing that old hurt? Do you think you got rid of “it” just to find it is still there, good as new?
More of a Neat Freak? A place for everything and everything in its place, right? Stuffing the issue doesn’t make it go away, it usually makes it worse.
Are you the Hostess with the “almost-ess”? Taking care of everyone can mean sacrificing parts of yourself. Ready to get those parts back?
When I had my first apartment I owned a TV, mattress and dresser. All activities took place in one room, it wasn’t exactly a designer’s dream but it served a purpose. As much as I wanted to get rid of this old stuff that was ugly and used, I couldn’t do so until I had the resources to replace it with newer more appealing pieces.
Same with our brains, the junk you are holding on to is serving you in some way that is why you keep it. It is not enough to just get rid of it, you have to be ready to replace it!
Do you collect negative thoughts and feelings until there is no space for anything else? The hoarders you have seen on television can’t even get to their kitchen sink because they have collected so many things they don’t need. Hoarding impacts their families and friends because of their relationship to “stuff”. Are thoughts and feelings stacked so high you don’t know where one ends and one begins? Emotional Hoarding is similar, this can also be called worrying, stressing, or obsessing. One negative thought leads to another and before you know it you are buried under the emotional clutter.
Or maybe you are the Recycler, and not the good go green save the environment kind. You are a pro at reusing old pain. It may be a hurt from twenty years ago or last week, but it has roots and you have dug in and are not letting go. If someone close to you has said, “not that again”, you are recycling. Sometimes everything else is roses, as long as that person, event, issue or circumstance isn’t brought to mind, but when it is, whoa, watch out!
How about the Neat Freak. The hurts, disappointments, insecurity is there, but it is placed on a shelf or in a drawer. At first glance everything appears to be in order but don’t start snooping around. This kind of compartmentalizing takes a different kind of energy, when you close some of those doors you lose access to some important places. This is a great way to trick yourself into thinking everything is ok when really there is an avalanche just on the other side of the closet door. If you are in a general state of numbness this could be why.
The Hostess with the “almost-ess”. For you there isn’t necessarily a lot of junk looming in the background, for the most part you like who you are and have no problem focusing your efforts on other’s needs. You have lots of room to let others in and you make them comfortable and that is its own reward. However, you get a little restless every now and again. Once upon a time your life was about anticipation and possibility. Somewhere along the way you lost a little bit of yourself, no regrets just stating the facts. Your dreams, your “what ifs” that were once front and center are tucked away on a shelf somewhere in the back of your mind. What would it take to pull them out, dust them off and revisit them. When did you stop giving yourself what you give so freely to everyone else?